Tuesday, June 30, 2009

the after effects....

like every thing in life.....the effects are good....tiring...and completely irritating at times.....the effects of climbing everest....and...returning safely....just refuse to stop at anything......and some parts of it i really really enjoy....and sometimes i just think why am i here.....like going to my own school....was soooo exciting and so much fun....but going to events where i just become a source of some kind of excitment....with people who dont really want to be inspired or care about mountaineering...it becomes a drag....none the less everyone excited,apprieciating and now supportive....but i wonder how long i can sustain this....i have hardly had a quite lunch or dinner since i am back,i have my exams coming up and people refuse to understand that i need to study....i stil have to attend atleast 7 programmes everyone thinking that they aint really disturbing me....coz anyways its tough to study when u have just come back from the mountains...

there are so many things that cross my mind now..."maharashtra's daughter"....how has maharashtra really supported me....when i started out...my mother always let me do whatever i wanted...and everyone around us...would always wonder and sought of look down upon us as to why she lets me do all these crazy things....and now that i have been successful....oh i am the pride of the country...i'am doing my studies externally from Pune University....when i took that decesion...no one other than my mother spported me...it was like i was doing the worst thing in my life...today no one says a word...i'am really proud of being a maharashtrain....but i dont like it when people who havent done....and would have looked down upon me before my acheivement to talk about maharashtra....though it is also true that i was trained in uttaranchal...which was uttar pradesh earlier...all my instructors....my motivators...my inspiration comes from all my instructors....and i give them the entire credit for where i have reached today....and also say that if i was trained in maharashtra....just because of the kind of politics that would have taken place here...just between mountaineers...they would have never given me the opportunity or support...which is what happened in uttaranchal between themselves also...its just something that we humans do between the people of our own kind coz we feel like we should be the best atleast in our group of people...what i did i did it only as an human...max i did it as a Indian....before i went it dint even cross my mind about being a maharashtrain....thats how i was brought up and thats how we were taught in school....vasudhevyaa kutumbh kam.....we all show off about our varied cultures...our cultural diversity....and how united we are as an country....but when it comes to practically living it we come down to maharashtra,gujrat,UP,etc etc ....i'am just a mountaineer...that too a very young one....not only do i have to gather more experience as a mountaineer but also as a citizen....as a indian.....and most importantly a human being...i dont wana be politically correct....i dont wana get pulled into thes e things that i really dont have any connection with....why is mahendra singh dhoni not invited to these functions....and even then he gets the kind of sponsorship that he does get...there are so many questions....and almost no answers....and not enogh time to find out an answer....before you find a answer the problem....has aldredy developed into something bigger...or taken on another face....i was just about prepared to climb up everest and down everest....i dint know the kind of responsibility that it would put on me....reporters ask me wether i would guide other mountaineers and how i would help them....and i feel guilty for not to have thought about it....but then again...i am only 2 peaks old....and when dhoni...or sachin or sania are not expected to open up 'margdarshan centres' why am i expected to do so....what are these superstars of sport doing so that more people could join that perticular field....besides i always wonder....and ask this question to ueself as in your own lines of work....say selection of cricket team...or job interview....or engineering entrance exam.....would u wish to have more compitetors or less....i can be truthful and frank.....i would want the least number of compitetors possible....but when i am about to leave that profession...or coming close to retirement i would really from my heart help others....this question should be asked to me when i become the Amithab Bacchan of the mountaineering fraternity....not when i am just a Darsheel Safary.besides mountaineering is a responsibility in itself....most people dont even keep our surrondings in the cities clean....they will just go and make the himalayas dirty...the minimum number of people go the better....but the best and the most responsible should be the only ones to go....the himalayan environment is a very sensitive and frail environment....it has to be taken care of....just see how sinhgad or any other beautiful spots around pune have been kept...its best that such people dont go all the way till the himalayas to spoil it....everything comes with a reponsibility....and very few people realise their responsibilities....these are just my thoghts....am a little upset...and really angry with the way things are going....